well I am at home doing some much needed studying for a midterm I have on Monday and my ex girlfriend is out at a party. Man do I feel low right now. I know it shouldn't bother me. I mean we are friends now and we still at least have that. But what can I say it does. This little nagging voice in the back of my head telling me she is in the arms of some other guy right now, even though that probably isn't even true. Why is it bothering me so much, why can't I just let go. It was a good run and I have memories I wouldn't trade for the world. We are still friends so I guess I couldn't ask for anymore more in a break up. Ahh it feel like little maggots eating away at my insides. You can't see them but you just can't ignore them either. Eating away slowly little by little taking all the pieces of you away. It isn't as if I have been just sitting around mopping either. I mean I have been going out and have been having fun with people that I didn't feel I could while I was in a relationship. I just hope she doesn't feel as weird about this as I do because it isn't a good feeling. I guess with time it will fade it just sucks right now.