FUCK!!! I am shooting myself in the foot. I need to finish this stupid ethics paper already. Gahh just want to write it all down and be done.

almost 25 and buried in debt
what have I got to show for it
en empty bottle of whiskey and a life of regret
those good times just went by to fast
and it seems like like those dark days will never end
flying my own flag keeping it at half mast
while all I do is spill my tired and angry words
onto the back of this beer stained coaster

I recently read an article by one of my favorite writers Warren Ellis in which he advocates puppy punching as a new Olympic sport. This seems like an idea with great potential to me. It would have to be done in a way similar to that of figure skating my opinion. It would be done to music and points would be awarded for style, technique, as well as rhythm. Heck to appease all those puppy lovers out there it could even be changed to ugly mammal baby beating. In any case it would be the only sport that manages to truly encapsulate the Olympic themes properly. That of beating to death something that was once pure.

staring out at the ocean as it stretches its liquid surface to the horizon
so open and full of mystery
a single gull circles and dives to sit atop the rolling water
been sitting here so long I can not tell if it is the water lapping at the land or the other way around
I scream as loud as I can but the sound gets eaten up by the crashing of the waves
dip a finger in and feel the cold darkness grasp my hand
a lonely looking figure stares up at me from the water
beckoning me in to sink below the surface
to a place where pain no longer has a home

Even better then crack

I have an addiction. I can't get enough playoff hockey. I don't know what it is but every year at about this time I am glued to the tv while everyone else I know is out enjoying the beginning of spring. There is is just something about the intensity and the marathon like battle that draws me back every time, and thats just between me and my liver, the one on the ice is even better. So for the next five weeks goodbye to stable nerves and a healthy demeanor.

A rant brought to you by the good Reverand Chuck Swindle

I have a paper due soon about why I think objective morality is to "queer"(how the proff has it on the sheet) to believe. So as a way of studying (ok fine I was procrastinating) I have been watching the religious channel. It never fails to get me angry and pissed off to the point of rolling on the floor frothing at the mouth while shouting random obscenities about dinosaurs at the TV. While recovering from one such episode I began to think there might be a connection between my inability to take seriously objective moral codes such as Kant's and Mill's and my utter distaste towards formal religion. It comes down to belief and what belief means to you and how it shapes the way you act. If a person holds that their beliefs are objectively true then they act as if they were for everybody else as well. Their is almost a sense of domination involved where what you believe, if it is objectively true, is what I have to believe to. In fact what you are believing should be self evident to me as a rational human being according to people who give their beliefs such standing. This kind of thinking has built into it a sense of arrogance and entitlement. It could be argued that much of the violence of this world has been caused by such rational. From Bush 2 "bringing" democracy to the middle east, to battles between Shiites and Sunnis. There is always an element of "I know what is true and why the hell cant you see that" to the whole thing.
In a perfect world it would be possible for everyone to accept and understand that what they experience and know and believe is exactly that theirs. Yet we don't live in a perfect world so the theory has to account for the fact that people are forced to come together and interact in ways that create society through necessity. In doing so people have to reach agreements and understanding. They can agree on the things that make up our common practices within the group. That isn't to say that they all agree on the things that make up the big picture like what happens after we die and what does it all mean etc, but the small things that make it possible for people to interact and function in a society. The ideas that make up a persons core beliefs are theirs and theirs alone. others may also share beliefs like it but it is still shaped by the fact that it is yours. Once everyone realizes that the most subjective thing in the world is beliefs then perhaps the world can move on to a new age. How diverse and utterly bizarre would such a world be. I don't know how to bridge that gap. I am caught by the logic of my own argument. It seems self evident to me to the point of despair and frustration that the world can only be seen subjectively and should be by everyone else to. Maybe if we moved tolerance into the position in our beliefs that is now held be equality. Instead of seeing all beliefs as equal because we do seem to agree that some ideas are better then others, why not just be tolerant that difference exists. It is this difference that helps define what we are, for without it we are all the same and therefore are nothing. Embrace difference and subjectivity and revel in the fact that it makes possible existence.

wow that was a lot more writing then I had planned on doing. I will have to read this later when I am not strung out on energy drinks and bong hits and see if it still sounds as interesting.