the way it is

I used to be so angry and try carry the weight of the worlds injustice on my shoulders
I would look around and see so much wealth and prosperity and then I would open a book or read an article and see that it this was only for the small selected few
how could I not be angry
growing up with the belief that if one works hard and does the right thing then a good life will be their reward
to see this lie shattered
it moved me into another belief that maybe I could make a difference
if I just railed enough against the those that perpetuate these systems of dominance and subservience
if I just wrote enough and yelled loud enough and expressed enough outrage everyone would see that it didn't have to be this way
another lie
becasue it is just who we are
it sounds so sad and defeatist but its is just how things are
as individuals dealing with individuals we can usually come to compromise
see how the other has valid points and make accommodations accordingly
yet once this gets extrapolated onto a societal level there are just to many voices and to many competing views on what truth actually is
despite the fact that truth is just another lie we tell ourselves
So I am not angry anymore
bitter yes cynical of course but not angry
I can not work up the outrage necessary to be angry anymore
life is built upon opposites
we can not have happiness without sadness
we can not savor those moments of joy without those moments of utter desperation
their can not be good deeds without the bad ones
this is just the world in which we live
there will always be the rich and their always be the poor
just like there will always be the dominate and the subservient
we can change who is in what group but these groups will always exist in one form or another
that is just part of what existence in this life entails
we can not have our cake and eat it to and I guess I am content with that now